Culture Or New Future?

It is 1st of September & I got sad, I feel depressed, my destiny is still unknown, my future unclear though I'm drawing smile on my face, you will ask why? I feel we are living same scenario everyday; today same as yesterday, nothing better, no future, no working on real steps, we are living in torture, trying to help others but no one really help us back, we are dying in our own place & some says why you are thinking of leaving? what will you find in other countries? you will have no jobs there, culture will be different, life & people be different too than here, you are here better than there , at least it is your own country!

I have heard such these things over & over & I want to tell those who are thinking like that, what is the benefit from being here without getting our rights, our right to choose?
What is the benefit from living with people acting like wolves?
What is the benefit from living here & actually I don't feel I belong here?why? because I don't have rights to select what I want? what future I want? what dreams I want to achieve?
What is the benefit of being here with no human rights? no women rights?
Where is our REAL life? what have done to be just like others in their countries?

They think it will be hard there so, Isn't it hard here? with our worries, bombing cars, killing & kidnapping people?

I believe humans have rights & this is who I am first and I am Iraqi second.

We should treat other people by humanity in first place.

I respect what others believe, their cultures, societies but I will take what is good for my believes & traditions.

This is what they call to be "open minded", always we live in close boxes never accept others, even don't listen to them, I learned to "Think outside the box!".

I'm tired of living in fears, fears from tomorrow, from others re-actions on this & that. I'm tired of living in fear's tornado, killing me, killing my personalty, limiting my abilities, capturing my plans to go forward.
We are raised to do something in our life, give a good message, It is a crime to be in prison; it is a self prison, very hard to explain, but; it is inside me, if it was a man I would fight him, but it's me!

 I am fighting with me?? challenge myself??

We are not born to be weak, GOD isn't weak to create us weak too, he gave us brain to think, to choose.
So, why I feel that way? Is it the guilty feeling? Or what?